Sunday, June 28, 2009
I wish I could rip back the last two days at work. My practical nurse who is supposed to be working in tandem (with me in charge) has made it clear that she thinks I should already know everything and I'm headed for falling on my face. I disappointed her with the first, but not the second. But you know, I sought advice from the other RNs and no one knew the protocol until I got to work the next day and could feel the residual anger.
I have two nights now with her and am spending too much energy worrying if I should confront her with the "you don't have to like me but you have to work with me for the good of the patients" or the "I'm trying to respect your experience but I need more help" or the go home and cry at the end. This is why I left nursing. I could get all sorts of support from the rest of the group, but I don't want camps to ensue.
Right now I feel like the spent elastic on that old pair of underpants. Very little stretch left before everything falls apart.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Campanula glomerate 'Superba'.
Clustered bellflower carries its funnel-shaped flowers in large, loose clusters.
Thrives in sun or partial shad.
Divide in clumps in autumn and spring.
It's growing well in heavy shade, and I'd be happy to share it in the fall.
The Hey Teach is coming along. I keep waiting for the trick, but I think the surprise is that it is a well-written fast knit. The back is almost done.
Red pepper flakes.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Yesterday was my catch up day with putting the house back in order and the leftovers in the freezer. I actually made turkey soup with the broth that I thought I wouldn't need for a long time. Unfortunately the 8 inches of stockinette stitch did nothing to spark my mind. I went to bed at 9:30, exhausted again. I feel better today and ready to tackle the band and lace of Hey Teach.
I also worked on the scarf gift with the yummy Casbah in the evening (before I crashed).
Today I was excited to meet Kate Jacobs. I must admit it took a bit to get into her book, but I loved the characters, and it got better as I went. My dear friend loaned it to me and I had to buy her a replacement because I rather trashed it in my nursing bag. We had lunch and enjoyed her talk about making communities and taking chances. I was definitely charmed.
Unfortunately the grad travel plans have changed and eventhough I am not in control, I got a huge blast and feel terrible. I asked the same graduate to make some calls and apologize. It has to do with pleasing his date and the dominoes fall from there. So right now I am talking to you who are not involved and hopefully are not pissed off at me like so much of the world.
I have had to disappoint a lot of people when I chose to return to work instead of volunteer for them. I'm disappointed that my family has not picked up more where I left off (so sad for me) and I'm still tired and overwhelmed from jumping into night shifts at my advanced age. Whew.
So I look forward to getting my act together in areas that I can control. Recognizing that it's not my job to make everyone's lives better and doing a better job at looking after myself. I bought myself a BCAA membership today, that's a good start. Plus I"m learning two new tunes on the piano. Too bad you can't buy or eat your way out of a slump.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
Monograms. I pimped my phone with pretty sparklies.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
I knit the Fleece Artist Make Waves Shawl kit that I bought when I couldn't find the right wool for Eunny's Print O the Waves Shawl. I eventually knit Print o the Waves and gave it to my second sister for her 50th. This I finished and set aside. Knitting in the bank.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Every year I choose one new release that turns out to be intertwined with our summer memories. It has been successful: Van Morrison, k.d.lang, Yoyo Mah, Harry Connick Jr., Dave Brubeck. It started unintentionally when I was young and listened to CFUN radio station. Elton John and Billy Joel were big summer tunes. Then in university, it was Ah ha, Tears For Fears and Huey Lewis. What are your sounds of summer?
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
This is a very special shade of green that I cannot abide. It was a donation with some other wool I wanted, especially preserved for this charity project. But I contest.
And our shady field is tall with seeded grass. I love the morning light.
Monday, June 08, 2009
Thursday, June 04, 2009
Tuesday night was awards: Emily sang O Canada and Scott got some great awards and scholarships.
Naturally my reaction was to knit a shawl. Does anyone understand this? I immersed myself yesterday, which was good because I really needed to sit still. I cast off Icarus this morning.